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I just don’t understand why my mother tells me I call people stupid. All I say is, that’s a stupid decision or don’t be stupid. That is not calling them stupid. She really needs to get her mind together. I really wouldn’t call anyone stupid.
so, i passed out…
while helping my sister move and not only was she there but my mother was too. my sisters roommate is a nurse and told them my blood sugar was low and that i wasn’t eating enough. so, my mom told me i had to eat something… not only that but now my father has guilt tripped me into going to dinner with my siblings from his side (whom of all i hate) i am only going to see my dad because he doesnt get to see me on chistmas…anyway, the point of this little ti raid is that, i didnt eat my snack that mother “made” me eat (i fooled her, thank god!!) but now i am going to be in a place where people throw their peanut shells on the floor and drink beer and hit on me and try to shove food down my mouth…today is pretty much the start of my christmas break and it of course turns out bad…i fucking hate life and would much rather be dead then go see a bunch of people that only contact me on christmas and thanksgiving and who didn’t come to see me when i was literally laying on my death bed. the only reason i survived was because i wanted to show them that i am strong and can survive without them. ugh!!!!
sorry if you have read this. its just a rant. anyway, i hope your day has been great and if you need anything or just want some advice…my email is
andrea.garzonie@yahoo.com
ugh!
i ate fucking fast food last night and didn’t even get to purge. this sickens me…
OK…good news.
good day…kind of.
I didn’t eat much today and what I did eat had very little calories and I am pretty sure I worked all of them off and if not, I got pretty close to it. I love this feeling of being empty and just hungry. I look at food and I just think gross and my stomach stops growling. I love having control over myself. This is the best feeling in the world. I wish people could understand that this makes me feel really good inside. I really just want to be thin. I hate being fat. It is just gross. As long as I keep this up though, I will be skinny in no time. :D if anyone wants to go through this with someone instead of being alone my email is andrea.garzonie@yahoo.com. My name is Beanie and I would really like someone to keep me motivated and keep working for my goal.
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Mothers…..
My mom dropped me off at home and said she was going to go get us a healthy dinner. I told her I wasnt hungry and she brought back panda. She told me I had to eat it or she would take me to the hospital. I ate it and now….i feel fucking fat! I cant believe she made me it. I feel like purging but I cant until she goes to sleep.
